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"Live For Today, For Tomorrow We Die"

But I don’t want comfort. I want poetry. I want danger. I want freedom. I want goodness. I want sin.

—Aldous Huxley, Brave New World  (via thenocturnals)

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The Pursuit of Happiness (Part #1)

I finally have inspiration to blog, which gives me some sort of self absorbed satisfaction I suppose.

*this is part one of a series of blogs about my never ending struggle to be happy*

John Locke once said that man has three unalienable rights; Life, liberty and estate, Thomas Jefferson would later change it to; Life, Liberty, AND the pursuit of happiness.

Today in my life, in all of our crazy messed up teenage lives, all we want is to be happy, to be accepted, to be loved, to know that, if we died today, someone would be in tears tomorrow.

It would be foolish to say that we as people are naturally happy, or that we make ourselves happy….cuz if that were the case, wouldn’t we all just stay at home with ourselves every day?

 It’s called the PURSUIT of happiness…as in; we as people need to look for it, chase after it, and strive for it.

Now, what is it that we find happiness in?

·         Religion?

·         Drugs?

·         Sex?

·         Love?

·         Family?

·         Friends?

Whether proscriptive, or prescriptive, I would argue all are vices…as in no one needs them to survive, however I would also argue that all make living life a whole lot easier. Happiness doesn’t just come to you, you don’t just become happy, happiness is work; sadly this little truth had eluded me for too long until recently.

Happiness is an emotion, and you feel emotions through a release of chemicals from your brain, these chemicals come from various glands that are triggered through various things, like when you hear certain words, smell a certain odor, see someone or something you value or despise, or hell even touching someone/ something. Others would say that it’s through your own independent thought that triggers these chemicals, like, you tell yourself that you’re happy, and your happy, tell yourself you’re sad, and you’re sad, and so on….

Always look on the brighter side of life

I’m not a very happy person, im super cynical, and a pessimist, but…in 100% honesty, its by my choice, I choose to look at the world this way, because that’s how I see it, as a shitty existence..However this past week, I’ve come to realize that by switching perspective, my emotions changed. This week I’ve been thrown a lot of curve balls, but somehow I’ve managed to keep and overall positive outlook, because I kept going over all the things im grateful for….and before doing it I thought it was the stupidest thing, but now, its something that really keeps my head up. When ever I would get sad, I just took time out to think about times I was happy, and I assume that its those thoughts that triggered those chemicals, and gradually, I felt better. Now im not saying that do this and BAM youre happy, I was never 100% happy by this, but it made the sadness bearable. The gratefuls come from an activity in class that my teacher makes me do, (Interpersonal communications, ms. Mcdaniel.) and im going to share with you my very first five gratefuls, and by writting these things down, its just gotten me through the days.

5 gratefuls

  • Dr. Pepper
  • How I met your Mother (tv show)
  • sleeping bags
  • Lidija
  • Beds

Thats it, 5 simple little things, a soda, a tv show, a place to sleep, and my girlfriend, thats all i could think of…it tooke me 15 minutes to think of these 5 things, and after i did, i realized how much impact they have on how i feel, so im going to end this by giving yall a challenge….

write down 5 things your grateful for. then individually think of why youre grateful for these things…and i assure you, youll be a lot less sad afterwards then if you didnt.

and always keep in mind, Happiness doesnt come to you, its a never ending pursuit